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Title: Heartbeat
Pairing: SasuNaru (safe for het fans though, nothing more than is actually canon)
Summary: What binds them is something strong than anything else and deny it or not it is there.
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto and I don't make money writing fanfiction for it.
Dedicated to: Lene
A/N: I will not do a sequel or another chapter so please don't bother asking, the asnwer is no. I'm sorry, I just have no intention of continuing this particular piece.

He can't feel it anymore.  At least that's what he tells himself.  The hard pulse of his heart is nothing more than too much exercise.  The fact that he can hear it thudding and pulsing in his ears like a perfect drum beat even when he's still and quiet means nothing.  If it seems stronger when he closes his eyes it's only because he is focused on it.  It's louder though than the rustle of leaves in the wind, the crackle of the campfire, or even the two members of Hawk that had always seemed incapable of keeping their voices at reasonable volumes.  With one of them gone there was no longer even the scarcest chance of drowning it out.

It's not anger.  Sasuke can still feel that.  That boils inside him on the verge of spilling out.  It beckons him forward, calls to vengeance, and focuses him in a way nothing else ever has.  Anger, resentment, ire... call it whatever they like, everyone knows that he is driven by it and that nothing short of death will cool it.

There is no mistaking it for happiness.  His chance at ever finding that died with Itachi.  He remembered that, had once been filled by it where the anger now rested.  His family, his pride, his brother... they had once been that to him.  There were moments even after they were gone that he could almost touch it, but those moments were false and empty.  Sasuke knew it even then.  Every time he closed his eyes he saw his parents and it reminded him that they were.  Before his brother's blood had spilled down over his hands, Sasuke had believed he would find it again some day, maybe after.  Peace would have been close enough.  When he realized that he had been betrayed not by his brother, but by everyone else... When he had realized there was no going home, there was no peace, and that there had never been even the slightest chance of it that was he'd given into the rage and pushed everything else away.

The feeling that had thrummed for so long inside him was also not sadness.  He had taken away his own right to feel that when he had allowed his brother's eyes to replace his own.  His pain seeped from Itachi's eyes as the only tears he would ever cry again.  They were tears so numb that he wondered if they were his at all.

It was not doubt or fear, those he had cast aside when he'd left the village.  When you were not afraid to die and you no longer doubted that you would there was no reason for either.  He would go forward, he would succeed because death was coming and failure was not an option.

What he couldn't feel, because he couldn't allow himself to feel it was something different.  It was an echo that he saw in blue eyes.  It was everything that he had once been and no longer could be and for every bit of anger that he felt those blue eyes held in forgiveness.  In blind, stupid hope.

The closer they are, the louder and stronger it is. It stills his hand even when the anger tells him to push the blade harder. When anger screams inside him to prove that he's stronger than an echo that he can't, but should have forgotten years before.

He had tried once before to break the bond and the day is coming when he will prove to everyone, including Naruto, that it means nothing.  He cannot hear it for what it is because he cannot allow himself to.

Sasuke closes his eyes and tells himself that he can't feel his heart beat inside his chest, that it doesn't exist, and blue is nothing more than a color.  It's a lie, but he tells it to himself anyway.
He invaded my brain while I was working on an original... very annoying. Usually he's the muse I kick in the teeth and tell to fuck off, and I do have a muse for him, but as annoying as it was to be interrupted I figured certain friends wouldn't mind some SasuNaru so I let him win for a change.

Seriously though I'd rather have a Tenzou or even just a different bad guy muse, because I don't need Sasuke.
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halfbreed-fox-dragon Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That was very moving. You've captured Sasuke's essence very well with this piece.
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KiterieAine Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you, that's exactly what I was hoping for.
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shinranightrain Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Stunning, and it really speaks volumes no matter how you choose to interpret it (seriously, I read it many times from multiple perspectives; it is THAT good).

This one is a true testament to your skill, and a shining addition to your gallery. :heart:
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KiterieAine Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
That's what I was aiming for so I'm glad to know that I succeeded. ^.^ Thanks.
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shinranightrain Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
You know you can count on my comments to tell you what I think, and you don't have to thank me: I enjoy reading your work very much, especially since I pretty much never get to work on my own fanfictions anymore.
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gymnosophist Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2011  Professional Writer
XD! :D :heart:
Lovely...
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KiterieAine Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Glad you enjoyed it hun. The darn thing popped in my head while I was working on an original and DEMANDED to be written.
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gymnosophist Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2011  Professional Writer
:D Sure did! Glad darn things pop into your head... :heart:
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KiterieAine Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Usually I am though dunno if I am when it's Sasuke.
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gymnosophist Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2011  Professional Writer
^_^
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VernaJast Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2011
Oh, that was beautiful!!! You captured his brokenness, pain, and willingness to lie to himself if it means accomplishing his goals perfectly. I love it!!
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KiterieAine Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Glad you like it hun, he was being an annoying little pest and making it impossible to think. I always wonder if I got him right after I write him given the whole not really liking him thing.
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VernaJast Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2011
Nope, he's great! :D Maybe disliking him somewhat gives you an objective POV on him a bit? A lot of Sasuke-fan-girls write him...pretty terribly... ^^; (And for me, Naruto's my favorite character, and I find him terribly difficult to get just right. *pout*)

Great work!
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KiterieAine Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Maybe it does. I'd never really considered that. The times I've seen him written where it wasn't by you, Sarge, or imlikat are usually in the KakaIru fandom and they do a good job with him since they tend to play off his issues. There have been a few times thought that I've seen him outside of that for like contests where he's been seriously out of character to the point I wanted to punch whatever 15 year old wrote him.

Naruto's a sweetie and hard not to love. I love Kakashi and Iruka more but Naruto isn't far behind in large part because he's so important to them and plays a lot into their characters. I have fun writing him when I've got something specific in mind. He's weirdly charming although the squinty eye thing used to bug the crap out of me. Now it's funny.
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Jyukai-Koudan Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2011
Wow, this is a beautiful story. I love it.
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KiterieAine Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Glad you enjoyed it, the darn thing interrupted my train of thought so I thought if I wrote it'd leave me alone but of course then I still couldn't get back in gear. Oh well 4k in 2 days isn't bad.
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